*emanoN

Gosh

Sun, 10 May 2009 20:01:18 +0200

That was a helluva wedding yday....
....not quite myself just yet.

X
emanoN

seriously

Wed, 06 May 2009 11:09:11 +0200

were you all dropped as children?
The toothpaste that turns in to a foam in you mouth?!!
HOW CAN IT BE!!!! WOW!
Are you daft or something? Have you ever used a toothpaste that doesn't turn into a foam?
I don't mean to be funny, but that ad is a play with people.
Don't sink that low please.
Go ahead buy the toothpaste if it works, if you like it or whatever, but please dont buy it because "it turns into a foam"!!!

Other than that I'm off to work soon.
I'm just being so drained right now.
It's like before I was just fed up with things, but now....I've just lost it. I just can't be bothered.
Which is GREAT timing, concidering I'm working more hours this month....yaaaay or something.
I just can't wait for the weekend, thank good im not working this saturday!
On the other hand I'm going to a wedding....people I don't know.
When we got invited I thought "cool, a chance to meet some new ppl and to have some fun!" right now I'm thinking...shit why did I say yes... But I will go, I'm gonna regret it if I don't.

Well I better get ready, wish me luck today guys!

tata
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emanoN

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Limits.

Mon, 04 May 2009 17:16:59 +0200

Don't let where you are limit what you do.

I think the world is unfair. (duh surprise! ) But I think many people limits them selves without knowing it. Just because you live in the middle of the desert it doesnt mean you can't become a gret surfer for example. But how will you ever know?
So many people say: "make the most with what you've got" I say: Make the most with what you can get! Don't let anything stop you and you don't know what you can do until you try!
I totaly respect people who are happy and content with where and who and what they are but what I will never ever tolerate is people whining about things. "I will never get out of this sorry excuse of a town" well HAVE YOU TRIED??? And more importantly, have you tried more than once?

I loathe people who gives up.

Which brings me to another subject I've been thinking about; marriages. Why do people just give in and give up? I'm not saying all marriages are there to last forver (which opens the subject on why people rush into it but thats a subject for another day) Fight for it damn it! Gaaahhh i'm to tired to even start talking about this now, but all you people pisses me off!!

I might get back to you later, i need to go for a run or something to blow some steam.

tata for now X emanoN

song for today..it's so bloody brilliant...carry on damn it!

And the lyrics: Badfinger - Carry on till tomorrow

In younger days, I told myself my life would be my own
And I'd leave the place where sunshine never shone
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back
Carry on, carry on, carry on
Beyond the shadows of the clouds and onward to the sky
Carry on till I find the rainbow's end
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back
Carry on, carry on, carry on

Drifting on the wings of freedom, leave this stormy day
And we'll ride to tomorrow's golden fields
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on, carry on, carry on

And when the heavy journey's done, I'll rest my weary head
For the world and it's colours will be mine
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the setting sun
Then I know again that I must carry on

Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back
Carry on, carry on, carry on

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So...

Sun, 03 May 2009 18:05:07 +0200

I've been gone, proper gone.
I've been in a proper "can't be arsed"-mood the last six months or so.
So yeah I've hit bottom, but atleast I've got firm ground under my feet now.
So..... onwards.

So we are all gonna die in swineflu, fruktosis makes us fat, spring is here, everyones pregnant and the ressesions has just become a word.
None of all of that is on my mind right now.
I'm having an age-crisis.
When I was 5 years old just about to turn 6, my dad asked me what I wanted for my b-day.I said:
"I wanna be 4 again."
And I've felt like that ever since. Can't you all see that we are being tricked? God...
I just refuse to belive that the meaning of life is to get old.
I've been thinking about this alot, the "meaning" of life. First of all I would like to say that I'm not convinced that there is a meaning, and I don't mean this in a fatalistic way, what I mean is just that I'm not sure that everything has a meaning. I think alot of people use that as an excuse for things; "When my husband left me I thought my life was over but then I met my new boyfriend and now my life's bloody brilliant, theres a meaning to everything that happens" yadayadayada.... that type of crap I mean. NO!
Well, since I am this way...not convinced everything has a meaning..... I haven't felt that I have to accomplish anything in particular.Don't get me wrong, I've always had goals, but more based on a what I want to do than on a what I feel I have to do basis, if that makes sense.
But now, I'm getting old and I'm starting to think that maybe I have missed something? Like I have done alot of things I have wanted to do through life so I'm not bitter or have any regrets or anything but I'm having this feeling "should I have wanted something else?" Like should I belive in something else? I don't belive in God or any other higher power, I don't belive in a "meaning" of life. The only thing I belive in is that random events form your life and who you become, but I also belive that it is up to each and every one of us to do what we want with those random events. It is up to YOU to decide who you want to be.
I chose to become what I am today and I like me, I'm just wondering.....would I be the same if I had done differently.... I would like to see a version of "sliding doors" starring me and my life, just to know. And am I getting too old to have another go?

Another thing I have done is to start writing a diary again, you know like a proper "write with a pen on paper" one, it's very theraputical. It's a little bit "artsy crafty" since I put quite a bit of time into it. But it helps getting alot out but the most interesting hing is to read it afterwards, not straight after not even a week after I've written something but maybe a year or even longer after. God it helps me stop myself from doing some mistakes over and over again! Right now I'm reading my diary from the year before I moved to England, and I am acctually quite pleased! I wrote about all those things I wanted to do and things and I have acctually done quite a few of those things! Go ME!

I'm gonna try and perk myself up now. I'm setting new goals. I have never failed to reach a goal I have written down. So I'm of to write my diary again. And I have it all figured out in my mind. I'm not gonna change the world but I'm gonne turn my world around.

tata for now
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emanoN

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The female version of manflu...

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:32:27 +0200

...I've got it.
Seriously, I think I am about to die.

I cough at night...not like a "hu hu", but a proper "GHEWGHEHEGWHGHEWEWHEEEEERGH" 'til it feels like my lungs are coming up.
And I had no idea that a nose as tiny as mine could produce SO MUCH SNOT!
I've been working every day though, sick days aren't my thing.

Things that cheers me up:

*Debenhams sale.
*Making fun of magazines frontpages (I love the one with "celbrities real weight revealed" and one of them is Cheryl Cole, and on the same front page they have "Cheryl's got the wedding ring back on her finger" That automaticly makes me wonder, is the "real weight" with or without the ring? and No im not sarcastic....really...)
*The perfect relationship.
*Fluffy things.
*Pink things.

Tata
X
/emanoN

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sorry for the absence...

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 13:52:04 +0200

but I have a head full of snot.

"Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future.
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life"

X/emanoN

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A day at the zoo...

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 19:30:37 +0200

So I've been to the zoo today. http://www.chesterzoo.org/
I love going to the zoo, cos I love the animals.
(Please dont feed me any agressive comments about animal lovers don't like zoos. Chester zoo does some important work, ok?)
I love the zoo, the animals, and today the sunshine.
I hate people, sometimes genuinely hate people.
People are loud. People are rude. People think the universe cirkles around them.
What I hate the most are women with trolleys, seriously.
You have no right to push when queing, cut infront of ppl in the toilet line, BUMP INTO MY HEELS JUST TO TRY AND GET BY, just 'cos you've got a toddler in a trolley.
And dont push my limits!
Not all people, but many.
And they all went to chester zoo today.

Shoes for walking.

Zoo York - Jackie

todays song: At the zoo - Simon & Garfunkel

X/emanoN

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nite nite

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 22:24:48 +0200

I have to get an fairly early night tonight, belive it or not I'm working tomorrow and I'm all on my own. Hard work that is. finnish at 12.30 though so I just might survive!

Just have to do all those "have too"'s first, dog walking, dishes, hang the washing etc. etc.

second thought, I dont have to do anything, so I just might not!

Nite nite!
X/emanoN

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oh what a day...

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 19:08:54 +0200

I was told today that I was intelligent but that I wasted it.
I was told that intelligence is a gift and I should be ashamed of myself for not using my intelligence (starts to drool a bit) I was told that doing what I am doing (I guess the person saying this means me doing as little as possible) is pathetic.
I wonder why this is.
To me it is like this: Every person has an amout of intelligence some more, some less.
This is something you do HAVE, then you can use it in different ways.
Some use it to make money, some use it to cure deceases, some use it to design shoes etc etc etc.
I use it to do as little as possibly and at the same time live as happy as possible. How can that be a waste?
I have done quite a few things in my life so far, tried many different things, changed my perspectiv and tried things from various different angles and none of it has really interested me.
For example, I spent some time getting a degree in micro biology and genetics. Today I'm not using that knowledge at all, should I just because I've got it? Even if it would make my life miserable?
I can honestly say that I dont regret doing it, not at all, but I can say I probably would have regretted it if I had been working within the same sphere.
Who can say that something is a waste or not?
Who decided that the thing that matters is what you work with or what education you have?
Probably the same type of people that on the question "Who are you?" tells me what they work with. If i wanted to know what you work with I would have asked you that.
And besides, if this intelligence is a gift, it means it's MINE and for me to do whatever I want with, if I so want to put it in a box and store it in a cupboard and never use it again, that is entirely up to me.

So after having that said, I'm depressed! I've run out of cream mints!
But to cheer me up I (off course) been looking for shoes again
I normally like a clean graphic type of look, clean lines, solid colours but lately I've been looking at irregular choice's shoes...they are just too cute some of them, I just dont know how to pull them off together with my normal way of dressing... anyways for you who dont know IC's shoes here's a few eyecandies

All of them and more can be picked up from http://www.schuhstore.co.uk
Aren't they just lovely!
Another nice thing about them is that they have pictures on the solea, that goes with the design of the shoes. This is definatley shoes for anyone who wants something original!
But as I said, when should I wear them?

So todays food is a super easy lovely pasta dish that anyone can make and that takes no time at all!

400 grams of diced pancetta
garlic (your choice how much)
olive oil
parsley
linguini (or any pasta of your choice)
parmesan cheese

Boil the pasta ( I know you know how to )
While its boiling, finely chop the garlic, heat it up with plenty of olive oil in a pan (when i say plenty I mean like so it covers the bottom of the pan) not too hot we dont want to kill either the olive oil or the garlic, just soften. add the diced pancetta let the pancetta brown.
Chop parsley
drain the pasta mix in with the garlic pancetta serve with plenty of chopped parsley, black pepper and parmesan cheese, and maybe some sea salt on top. enjoy!
Easy enough!

And todays music.
By one of my favourite artists.
Joe Cocker together with the mad dogs and englishmen.
it HAS TO BE this live version!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMwXPueu-RM

for now!
X/emanoN

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I'm in looooove....

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 11:04:13 +0200

Bassett's cream mints!

And dont come and tell me I shouldnt eat them for breakfast, I eat whatever I want for breakfast!

Can't belive I woke up this morning. I never wake up during the morning unless I really have to. (i.e when I'm working an early) but was really nice, the whole menagerie in the bed (including my man) all quiet and peaceful and the sun shining in through the window.
The only downside was that I woke up and my first thought was "I'm bored"....that doesnt feel too promising for the day to be honest.
Well went to the shop to get some milk for my morning coffee, and just happened to walk down the isle with the cream mints... so here i am, nom nom nom NOM!
It's funny, it always happens... I go to the shops to buy something simple; milk or smokes or whatever, so why is it that when I stand there paying I always end up paying £10 or more?
There went my jacket out the window, now I really will have to wait til after the 25th to get it, well I guess it'll give me a few extra days to decide wether to get the grey or the purple one, please help me someone!
So what am I doing today, well ofcourse, besides the daily shoe searching and dog walking I am thinking bout writing a letter to my local council and ask them to think more about the environment.
Seriously, where I come from (same place as santa to give you all a hint) we've been working with our environmental issues for like 50 years or so and it scares me now that I've moved here to see that you in this country are about where we were during the 70's.
Dont see it as a negative critisism, I think its wonderful that they/you/this country are doing things now. But it annoys me a bit that some things are going so incredibly slowly, when there apparently is functional ways of doing some things.
And why did I start to think about this again? Well because every time I go for a drive and I see the rubbish pileing up along the motorways I get properly pissed off! Can all you ppl, whoever you are, stop throwing things around, just 'cos something is used doesnt that mean that its no longer your problem!
And on that note: who are all you people who think that your closest lamp post also is your closest tip?
I'm fed up with all those microwaves, dishwashers etc etc I see parked every here and there, take some bloody responsibility and clean up your own mess!

Phew... I got a bit carried away then!

Todays first shoes, no heels!
I've wanted those since last fall, and since I still want them, I just might go and buy them,
they dont really need any explanation:

1460 8 eye boot
Dr.Martens

X/emanoN

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oh oh oh...

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 18:30:38 +0200

Before i forget!
These are to die for!!!
Faith again:

*goes away to deal with stomach cramps*
X/emanoN

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Tired.

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 15:24:07 +0200

And I'm not feeling very well.
Dunno whats wrong with me but its my stomach that has decided not to play anymore.
Maybe the snot that's been living in my head the last week has spread and is now infesting my stomach.

I'm trying to cheer myself up by looking at shoes online. I'm not sure it helps, it just makes me realize how much money I need. well well one day...sure.
Anyway, have found a few goodies from Office so far:

£100 £125

And as a tartan lover I just HAVE to show you those goodies from faith:

£65
And so for the grand finale! My right now favourite, the shoes I do love but probably never will wear ()
The shoes that attrackt my inner hard rocker, the shoes that tickles the the same place that Testament tickles tada:

Seriously...that studded front is a turn on!

So away from the shoes and to something completely different.
FOOD
I'm dying! Im so hungry but I'm afraid to eat! What can I eat to make my rebellious stomach settle?
Well...I'm off to die for a while, catch you later
X/emanoN

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Good night....

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 01:33:09 +0200

....or so I thought!

Was sitting watching TV before eating a sausageroll, and it just felt like I got a beesting or something.
BAM a HUGE ulcer appeared out of nowhere!
It hurts like hell and its the size of a small country!
Advice on how to get rid of it please?!

Well Im off to bed, gonna try and see if I can get a few hours.
A couple of panadol extras and a smoke and I'll be absolutely fine

Song for tonight:
Anthrax - Antisocial
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-t0affoV5rI

one of the bestest bands if you ask me!
and also one of the bestest looking dudes! Scott Ian

well nite nite!
X/ emanoN

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Better late than never?

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 19:55:35 +0200

I created my username, and this blog, well over a year ago.
Since then I've been sitting here looking at it.
I just havent known what to write. I have had LOADS of thoughts about it but never really anything I'm entirely happy about.
I think the biggest problem have been that I have wanted to somwhat stay anonymous and that is quite hard. But I have compromised with myself now.
And I think I can live with it if some of you reading this will recognize me from other places. I guess I can just say that someone has stolen my identity

Another reason why it's taken me so long to start to write is 'cos I dont really know what I want to write about. I'm no "fashionista", I'm no housewife, I'm not "normal" either, I'm just confused!
I was talking to a friend about it a few days ago, telling her I was thinking about finally starting to write, she gave me the great advice "just write about all that's going on inside that head of yours"
Great....
...I'm thinking "what should I write?"

So to start it off:

Todays music:
The Ting Tings - Thats not my name
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WP-CpEbVC98
incredibly funny choice if you ask me.
I feel like a complete retard sitting here giggling all to myself, but I give you that! lol

Todays food:

mama's dumplings

500 grams graited raw potatoes
800 grams cold graited boiled potatoes
1 cup of flour (any flour not self rising crap though)
2 eggs
maybe some milk.

and

400 grams diced smoked bacon (like pancetta)
1 HUGE onion or 2 small ones finely chopped
2 tbl spoons finely crushed allspice.

Shallow fry bacon and onion til it gets soft. add allspice, put in a bowl and put it in the fridge.
Make a dough out of all the potatoes, flour and eggs, add a hint of milk if it wont come together.
Make like "pancakes" out of the dough about the size of your hand, put a tblspoon of the filling in the middle of each pancake and roll into balls.
Lightly boil in salted water for about 20 mins.
Serve with lingonberry jam (buy it at IKEA), melted butter and finely graited carrots.
EAT MORE POTATOES!

On my shopping list:

Christian Louboutin shoes/boots.
Feel free to give me a pair if you have a pair left over somewhere!
It HAS to be those ones though!

More realisticly though, I might buy those Jimmy Choo copies from Faith:

What I KNOW I'll buy:

Jacket from Dorothy Perkins, bag from Dorothy Perkins, ankle boots from South:

I wish it was the 25th!
Well I am probably gonna go and buy the jacket tomorrow using the money I got for my B-day.
Annoying thing is that they've gotten in a purple-ish checkered bomber jacket aswell so I'm not as sure as I was before about the grey one and the purple one will go better with the bag, well, we will see.

I was just sitting here thinking I should write more about me, who I am, because as I read this through I realized that it doesnt really give a very good picture of who I am, but I dont think I will.
You will just have to make up your own opinion as we go along.

So for now: tata!
/ emanoN

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